Sigh...

Today I'm really soy loh...

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I've got extra class at 8.30am, but my mental clock told me that my "actual" class is at 10.30am, and so, I've slept (quite) late, and woke up at 9.30am instead... Righttttttttttttttt.... ==

And so, thinking that my lecturer wouldn't like it if her students came to the class late, I didn't go to the extra class and just waited for my EMA class, which was at 10.30am, instead. ==

On the way to EMA, it was quite smooth, until I reached the elevator. One of the lifts were at 4th floor, while the other has just reached the 1st floor. Thinking that, "Oh, well, maybe the one by the fourth floor will come down soon~" and so I waited patiently, without much moving, at the elevator by the ground floor and waited...

People began to accumulate near the elevator; something expected at a time like this (I reached there at around 10.40+am, coz I've forgotten the time... ==). The one which went up 1st floor has come down, but the people who came in late walked into the elevator first. "Oh, well, I'll just wait again."

Sheesh... And I waited for another 2 minutes I think. By the time I walked into the elevator, I saw Carlson coming out of the elevator. I didn't ask him where he was going; I just walked into the elevator coz I didn't want to miss it again.

After going to class, I did the exercises that Ms. Lee Lin gave us. It was quite easy, although the steps are one page long... ==

Lolz~

Finished EMA at around 12.15pm, and Sonia wanted to eat with me during lunch. Knowing that we haven't met in days, I agreed and ate with her in the cafeteria. She ordered a BBQ Honey Chicken Noodle, AND a bowl of Chicken Braised Noodle. She told me that she was really hungry, but somehow, deep inside, I wondered if she could really finish the two bowls of noodle... ==

She managed to finish her BBQ Honey Chicken Noodle, but she complained that the noodle was too oily and so she felt like vomiting. As she was about to finish her noodle, she told me that she wanted to eat rice instead! I was like, "WHAT THE?? You still have your Chicken Braised Noodle!!!"

And, as we talked, her boyfriend came and talked. She didn't touch on her Chicken Braised Noodle at all and so she let me have it instead. lol~

haha...

Well, after lunch, we (Me & Sonia) were supposed to sit down together to discuss about her IT assignment, but her boyfriend was there and so I didn't kacau their daun loh... =P

Wanted to book a room for later, at 2pm, for my Inno assignment, but there are no rooms available until 3pm. Sigh...

My team has already told me that we would meet at 2pm to discuss about the assignment, but until 3pm, neither Kelvin nor Michael were here in the library yet. ==

The other Kelvin, however, was in the library, but he was playing games instead... lolz~

So, just before Kelvin & Michael arrived at the library, as I was typing, something happened.

"Your Hard Disk has Failed. Please back up your system before...."

When I read that I was like, WHAT THE HELL????

And so, frantically I did what the laptop was telling me, and backed my laptop up. At first it went on smoothly, until suddenly even the back-up failed! OH NO!!!!!!

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Sigh... Thinking that maybe if I restart my laptop, everything that I have will be gone. And so I didn't even dare to turn off my laptop. I texted my sis, asking her if her external hard disk still got space inside. She told me lots of stuff which I wasn't in the mood of listening, and so I started to get a little mad.

But the she texted me, asking if I wanted to have some DVDs of hers, where I could transfer my important stuff inside first. I was a little joyed, but at the same time, so annoyed.

That time my English class was starting soon. I went to English with a serious down mood, and Damn! I was really mad that time! My laptop is just 7 months-old! And it has been problematic like a 7-year old kid! ==

Grr... Since English class I have been "busy" transferring my "important" documents into some CDs... The DVDs that my sister gave me malfunctioned, and I have to get back to my room, which is in the hostel, JUST to get my own copy of DVDs... Thanks, sis. You're oh-so-busy with your assignments and still u have to rush back to ur hostel in order to get the DVDs... =)

Sigh... right now, as long as my laptop can function, I will endure its problems for now... Can't wait to get it to the shop to reformat it... Hopefully it's free (coz my laptop's still on warranty~), and hopefully from then on, I won't be troubled by it any longer... ==

lolz~

(Click on the picture to find out what's going on with my laptop... ==)

And then one more problem. Whenever I call or people call me, the other party can't hear me although I can hear even a fly flying past the caller/receiver's phone. LOL~ Exaggerated, but true... I hear them loud and clear, but they can't hear me speaking... ==

Ugh!!! What a troublesome day! And DAMN! My luck for today, according to Facebook is 75%? HA! More like 75% UNLUCKY!!! ==

lolz~

Joey The Only Unlucky Dude, signing out... ==

~

Seriously, I'm not good in giving my posts names... ==

So, I'm just gonna put on whatever that is on my mind; the first thing that came to my mind after I clicked "New Post"...

Erm... Not much updates today... Just wanna say that my assignments are due soon, and nothing much progress has been done yet... ==

Drew "the girl" today... She's so totally NOT fit, and so I'm seeking Christine or whoever that is in designing/whatever that has NOTHING to do with Engineering/Science & Business to help me with my drawing...

As I drew her (the girl's) eyes, I was amazed at how beautiful her eyes turned out to be! Wow, I was jolted by my own drawing... Lol~ XD

hehehe...

Erm... nothing much liao I guess... wait till I finish drawing everything then I post my drawings here and in Deviantart lah... =)

I'm just trying to be... Happy~

Woo hoo! Forget about my sad and unhappy previous post! Well, not yet, at least... Lol~

If you've read it (my previous post), you'd know that I wasn't happy with who I am. But heck! I've totally forgotten! I'm Joey the Only! THE ONLY! F*ck y'all who made me think that I was and HAD to be a prototype of whoever you want your "perfect friends" should be. I am Me. Face it. I'm not gonna change myself just because you don't like me! It's your loss to be unable to appreciate me~ WAKAKAKA!!!

Well, there are some songs which I'd like to share with y'all...

When I was sad, this song reflected my status yesterday...

Rihanna's "Questions Existing" from Good Girl Gone Bad album (2007)

These lyrics touched me in a way:

"Take off my shirt, loosen the buttons and undo my skirt
Stare at myself in the mirror
Take me apart, piece by piece
Sorrow decrease, pressure release

I put in work
Did more than called upon, more than deserved
When it was over, did I wind up hurt?
Yes, but it taught me, before a decision, ask this question first

Who am I living for?
Is this my limit? Can I endure some more?
Chances are given, question existing
Who am I living for?
Is this my limit? Can I endure some more?
Chances are given, question existing

Take off my cool
Show them that under here, I'm just like you
Do the mistakes that may make me a fool
Or a human with flaws

And with them a loss, round of applause
Take the abuse, sometimes it feels like they want me to lose
It's entertainment, is that an excuse?
No, but the question that lingers, whether win or lose

Who am I living for?
Is this my limit? Can I endure some more?
Chances are given, question existing
Who am I living for?
Is this my limit? Can I endure some more?
Chances are given, question existing

Dear diary, It's Robyn
Entertaining is something I do for a living
It's not who I am, I'd like to think that I'm pretty normal
I laugh, I get mad, I hurt, I think guys suck sometimes

But when you're in the spotlight, everything seems good
Sometimes I feel like I have it worst
'Cause I have to always keep my guard up
I don't know who to trust
I don't know who wants to take me for who I am
Or who wants to be my friend for who I really am

Who am I living for?
Is this my limit? Can I endure some more?
Chances are given, question existing
Who am I living for?
Is this my limit? Can I endure some more?
Chances are given, question existing"

Wow. Amazing lyrics... Credits to Shaffer Smith, Shea Taylor, Shawn Carter for writing such a fabulous song... =)


Next, is a song that I think almost everyone in this world knows...

"Beautiful" by Christina Aguilera, taken from her Stripped album back in 2002

"Don't look at me

Every day is so wonderful
And suddenly it's hard to breathe
Now and then I get insecure
From all the pain, feel so ashamed

I am beautiful no matter what they say
Words can't bring me down
I am beautiful in every single way
Yes, words can't bring me down, oh no
So don't you bring me down today

To all your friends you're delirious
So consumed in all your doom
Tryin' hard to fill the emptiness, the piece is gone
Left the puzzle undone, ain't that the way it is?

'Cause you are beautiful no matter what they say
Words can't bring you down, oh no
You are beautiful in every single way
Yes, words can't bring you down, oh no
So don't you bring me down today

No matter what we do
No matter what we do
(No matter what we say)
No matter what we say
(We're the song that's outta tune)
(Full of beautiful mistakes)

(And everywhere we go)
And everywhere we go
(The sun will always shine)
The sun will always, always shine!
(But tomorrow we might awake on the other side)

'Cause we are beautiful no matter what they say
Yes, words won't bring us down, oh no
We are beautiful in every single way
Yes, words can't bring us down, oh no
So don't you bring me down today

Don't you bring me down today
Don't you bring me down today"

Beautiful lyrics, don't you think? Lol~

And so, I'mma live to the lyrics to this song... I won't let nobody bring me down... =)

hahaha


And finally, a really nice song that I'd love to share with y'all...

It's a new one from Leona Lewis, and I donno if you guys have ever heard of it... If you haven't; you should.

Leona Lewis - Happy, taken from her yet-to-release "Echo" album... can't wait!!

"Someone once told me that 'You have to choose
What you win or lose, you can’t have everything
Don’t you take chances, you might feel the pain
Don’t you love in vain cause love won’t set you free'

I could stand by the side
And watch this life pass me by
So unhappy but safe as could be

So what if it hurts me, so what if I break down
So what if this world just throws me off the edge
My feet run out of ground
I gotta find my place, I wanna hear my sound
Don’t care about all the pain in front of me
Cause I'm just trying to be happy, yeah
Just wanna be happy, yeah

Holding on tightly just can’t let it go
Just trying to play my role slowly disappear, oh
But all these days, they feel like they’re the same
Just different faces, different place, get me out of here

I can’t stand by the side, ooh, no
And watch this life pass me by, pass me by

So what if it hurts me, so what if I break down
So what if this world just throws me off the edge
My feet run out of ground
I gotta find my place, I wanna hear my sound
Don’t care about all the pain in front of me
Cause I’m just trying to be happy, oh happy
Oh

So many turns that I can't see
Like I'm a stranger on this road
But don't say victim, don’t say anything

So what if it hurts me, so what if I break down
So what if this world just throws me off the edge
My feet run out of ground
I gotta find my place, I wanna hear my sound
Don’t care about all the pain in front of me
I just wanna be happy, oh happy
I just wanna be, oh
I just wanna be, ohhh
i just wanna be happy, now happy"

Well... this song doesn't really reflect my life, but like the lyrics have said, I JUST WANNA BE HAPPY!!! HAHAHA!!

Erm... ok lah... seems like this post has been quite long enough... hahaha~~

Once again, a gentle reminder to myself, I am JOEY THE ONLY, and no one can, and will ever, change me... =)

Tired~

Seriously... I mean I'm tired both physically and mentally...

I've finally understood why people... dislike me. Coz I'm not masculine enough. Lol~

Sad, but true... And I seriously can't find any proof to deny this fact. Browse through my pictures in Facebook or whatever, and tell me, of all the pictures, how many of those pictures can show me that I am "masculine"? LOL.

Sigh... Can't do anything about it as well...

Just now, in that room... You have no idea how intimidated I was... Being in a room filled with people who don't really appreciate your presence... They didn't say it out loud, but the aura of hatred is undeniably strong. Making up an excuse of "Erm, I go to library first, yea?", I quickly turned away and began walking.

I don't know why I was afraid of them in some ways. Can't really blame them for being controversial in a way, right? Not everyone in this world can accept people like me. And I used to think that I was "okay", but until I've seen those pictures... Those horrible pictures of a person who looked like neither a guy nor a woman, ugh...

Yea, I'm talking about myself actually... Starting to hate myself, but like I said, there's nothing I can do. What's done, is done.

I can only pray for a cure for this...

Can somebody please teach me how to walk like a normal human and not like a... "Model"? Sheesh... I know, during that day, when I taught the girls how to walk like a model, people are laughing at me, secretly calling me names and so on... It's hurtful, but I can't do anything to stop them... After all, they have the "right" to speak...

Argh! I'm in a desperate need for someone to smack some sense into me! Turn me into a human please? I'm really tired of people talking... I've been "tough" for so long... I don't know if I can still manage to keep going on...

Sometimes I just wished that I were someone else instead of me. Even my name suggests that I am girly. ==

Maybe I should just disappear... And have no one miss me at all... Maybe... Just maybe, by the time I was gone, people will actually cheer for me... Coz, for once in their life, a freako is gone... Once, and forever gone...

23rd October 2009

This date is surely a date to remember...

It's one heck of a crazy and busy day. Ever since I woke up and until the time when I fell asleep... I haven't been anymore tired than this before! Okay, so maybe I have, but not in Swinburne at least...

I woke up at around 9 something, thinking that I am already late for class but then I remembered my class starts at 1030hrs. ==

The first class was Physics, where I got my test paper back & a short quiz. The quiz was a little bit straightforward... Luckily I have tried to memorize the formulas and everything before I went to class... And that was why I was late that day... Oops...

After Physics ended at 11.30am, I went to the library to think about what am I supposed to do during that afternoon's Dance Party rehearsal at 2pm. I've never been a "runner" before, and I was thinking about if I would be able to do a great job. Sent a text to my English lecturer, telling that I might be late for his class later, which was at 2.30pm, although I have no intention whatsoever in wanting to go to his class... ==

That evening, I still have an Innovation & Change presentation, but that's on 4pm. I've already planned on doing my part of the presentation spontaneously; I don't like to memorize speeches coz they make me sound like a robot. ==

When I went to the MPH at 2pm, Ah Zoo told me that the sound system hasn't arrived yet and so I couldn't rehearse... At first I was a little bit pissed off at the people who're supposed to deliver the sound system in the MORNING, but then again, things happen and so I couldn't blame anyone... =P

It was nearing 2.30pm already but still the sound system hasn't arrived yet. Daymn, so that means that I still have no idea on what am I supposed to do. I asked around, but no one also knows what it was that I am supposed to do... ==

Went back to the library to check out on my teammates, double Kelvin & Michael, on their preparation for our presentation later. I knew Kelvin Chong & Michael would do well, based on their English presentation weeks ago, and I was only worried about Kelvin Chung's part. He didn't do as well as he should be last time, and I was worried that he might lose himself again this time.

And after being with them for about 10 minutes, I rushed back to the MPH. So yea, basically all that I am doing that day is to walk here, run there, sprint here, dash there... ==

When I went back to MPH, I forgot about the time, but Carlson told me to go to English for awhile, just to "tell him that we're not going to his class"... ==

But when I went to class, our lecturer acted like he hadn't seen us at all. Right. Not that I cared anyways. I really do wonder, of all of his students, who'd actually want to talk to him personally? ==

I stayed in the class for 5 minutes and couldn't stand being ignored anymore. I left the class although Carlson has asked me to wait for our lecturer to let us sign the Attendance List. But what's the use of signing it when you're basically not in the class at all? Right? ==

So, I just left the class, leaving Carlson there, and went back to MPH. Sigh... until then, which was I think 3 something already... and the sound system has finally arrived (I think), but I still have no idea what I am supposed to do. ==

I ended up sitting down on the floor, listening to the heart-pumping-through-the-vibrations-of-the-basses music, and Melissa suggested that we tie the balloons since I've got nothing to do. At first I didn't tie properly, but on second attempt I did better. =)

It was nearing 3.40pm when I finished tying the balloons, and damn! My presentation would start soon, (actually my Inno class starts at 4pm, but my lecturer insists that we come at 3.45pm. ==) and yet I haven't changed. (as in my clothes)

As I dashed out to my hostel, Aaron stopped me and asked if I have memorized the programs list, and I answered no. O.o He panicked for awhile and then asked me to go photostate a few copies of the programs just in case, and as I went to UBS, the stupid stationary shop in Building A, and that lady over the photocopy machine was working so damn slow man!!!

Frustrated that I am behind time, I took my bag and ran upstairs to go and photocopy copies of the programs list instead. Luckily there weren't anyone to "steal" my "place", and I quickly photocopied 6 copies and then dashed back to my hostel, changed to my formal clothes and ran back to the MPH, handed to copies --Minus one copy for myself-- to Jude, bought a Cola and dashed to my class. Whew! Have I ran this much before in my life? LOL!

And to think that, arriving at class at 3.46pm was already late, what about those others who have arrived later than that? ==

My friend Fatyn, who's supposed to be the first to present, was lost, and she has wanted to contact me through Facebook, but because I am appearing offline, she took more time to reach the class... Sorry... =(

Anyway, the presentation went from 4.15pm to 7-I-donno-what-time-pm, my team being the third team to present. Hm... I could say that it went quite alright... My slides are done nicely, our Q&A are done quite nicely as well... =)

So I asked permission from my lecturer to leave early, and I quickly ran back to my hostel (in my formal clothes... ==), changed and ran to MPH. By the time I reached MPH, the party hasn't started yet. Good. I went backstage to check out what I am supposed to do, but still the instructions aren't clear at all... ==

So, I just did what my intuitions told me to do, and at the end of the party, Ah Zoo said I did a great job. Wee hee! But seriously, I don't think I did good enough... ==

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And so, enough of crappy talk... Let's just go to the party already, shall we? Sorry, Your Majesty Queen Haryati, I have been crapping for the past few minutes... wakakaka

So, the party started at around 7.45pm, and woo! A great start by the Soulz Crew, and Ah Keong was inside the routine as well. They are great! I watched from the stage, behind the curtains, and I was amazed! XD (That's the advantage of being a "runner"; you get to watch all the performances from backstage! XD)

After the first performance, food came. Dang. Carlson & Elmer went to take food first and when I went to check, there was a person trying to enter without buying the ticket and that time I was angry because Carlson didn't do his job as a Bouncer. ==

After telling him the situation, I trusted him that he would begin to take his job seriously liao... =D

And so I went to backstage again, and asked Wilson, the MC for the night, when would the next performance be. Telling me that it would be 8.15pm, and it was only 8.00pm, I went to enjoy some food first. Damn! The food finished fast! And no one took the egg tarts... ==

Then something uncontrolled happened. The DJ himself started the next performance and I was scolded for not informing Jude and others that their performance was up. Dang... But it was my fault lah... Who ask me to walk around instead of just staying next to the DJ, right? I was, indeed, on a job, and not playing. This is some serious piece of ___! Lol!

Knowing that I cannot mess up again, I took my job very seriously. So serious to an extend that I got mad when people just can't stop opening the backstage door and didn't bother to close it. Dammit!

After Jude's 80s performance was Wilson's 90s performance. Livin' the Vida Loca! (Whatever the lyrics is... hahaha) Ivanna & Wilson really make a great couple lah... Ivanna looked totally hot that night... =)

Between each performances would be some songs being played by the DJ to heat things up. After Wilson's routine, The Swinburne Salsa Club heated things up with "Naughty Girl" by Beyonce, Salsa version. =D

Joak's routine followed. I played an "important" role here, telling the person to turn off the lights in one instant. I did that, and everything was perfect, until some bastard went to open the backstage door. The whole thing was meant to be done in DARKNESS, you dimwit! Suddenly, there was light due to the person opening the door. Angered, I ran to close the door, but tripped over an unseen cable and one second later, *SILENCE*......

Oops! I messed up big time! NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!! Luckily the music came back automatically, and the bastard closed the door. Sheeat!!! ==

And the lucky thing is that, when the music stopped, it wasn't during the time when the singer is singing, you know? (The song being played is "Love, Sex, Magic", and only Justin was singing). And it has appeared as if the song was purposedly stopped for a second there. (When the music came back again, that was when Justin singing another line. So Lucky!!! If not ppl will definitely know that there was something wrong. Phew!!! What a close call! =D)

But damn lah... I messed up so many times in one night... (That explains the why I didn't do a good job earlier on)

After Joak's routine was Daniel's. Wow. B-boys are cool! HAHAHA!

And then Christine Jobita's routine, the sexy all-female dance, is up. Wow! Only two words can be used to describe the dance: "HOT" & "SEXY"!!!

Christine, Ivanna, Christine Tan, 丽君, Eileen, Anastacia, Melissa and some other girls whose names are unknown to me, performed. Wow... SEXINESS!!! XD

And the final routine is Ife's routine. Adeline is inside, and I'd like to specially mention her because she was learning the steps last minute, and was still able to dance greatly... I'm so proud of you, girl!!! XD

Ah... I seriously have forgotten when was it, but there was a session when the DJ played songs and I just danced my butt off, shook my hips off and jumped my feet off. Wow! I have never been this high before! HAHAHA! The atmosphere is seriously hot!! Everyone's dancing, jumping, shaking... It was such a crazy night! And I'm so glad that I've bought a ticket. =D

I seriously can't wait for next year's Dance Party... =D

Hopefully I can perform next time lah... I wanna dance! HAHAHA!!! XD

PS: Ladies of the night: Kat, Chris, Ivanna, you three kept me looking at you.. HAHAHA!!! Oops... gotta stop before Wilson come bash me up... hahaha

Alright, I think I have got to stop talking already... This post is long enough... XD

hahaha

Alrights, peoples, tills nexts times... This has beens Joeys Thes Onlys!! XDDD

Tired~~

My god, I'm so tired today. Or was it yesterday? Lol...

Anyway, I woke up to a rainy morning yesterday (22nd October 2009) [Right now as I am typing it's already 23rd, so yea...] and went to class early... Well, the teacher came in late... and so I went to play in the rain... hehehe... Not really play lah, just walk in the rain... Nice~ (thumbs up)

In the middle of the class, however, I suddenly got stomachache and I have to go to the toilet ASAP, or else I'll just poop my pants off. Lol... Explained that to my lecturer already... hehehe...

After that in EMA I was freezing... that class is just so freaking cold... hahaha

But everything didn't matter coz after that, I was going to have a haircut, which I have been anticipating for weeks... =')

Carlson brought me to Kenyalang to have my haircut, and after that he chia-ed me eat kolomee... Nice~~ (again, thumbs up)... =D

After that we walked around the shops for awhile before decided to go back to Swinburne. After getting my haircut, which I am okay with it eventhough it wasn't what I wanted, since I'm used to it.

The barber mistook my meaning when I told him that I want a flat-top haircut with a number 2 length, and he just shaved my head with number 2 length. ==

And so... yea, I'm a baldie... ==

Hehehe... oh yea... back to my story, before I went off the hook... After reaching Swinburne I went to the MPH to wash my head (coz there were hair on my forehead and I looked like an idiot... ==) and after coming out of the toilet Carlson was nowhere to be seen... When I looked to the opposite I saw Ah Zoo & Chris walking to the carpark and so I ran towards them and fell down on the base of the stairs, injuring my right knee... It was painful at first but... until I'm typing this, I have totally forgotten about my injury. @.@

yea... A dummy, I am... ==

I took a ride in Christine's car to drop Ah Zoo in The Spring, and at the roundabout, we saw Kat! =D

Lolz... And Kat was going to Spring as well! With Nimai, my Physics classmate...

When we were in the carpark just now, it was raining, and after coming back to Swinburne, it was still raining, and so that means that I have a walk in the rain again! Yay! hahaha...

But seriously... Yesterday was seriously a tiring day lah... Although I didn't do much, but I have been moving a lot... ==

After my final class I went to MPH to help out in Swinburne Dance Party... and have neglected my slides... ==

Stayed there until 10-ish pm, and went back to hostel to do my laundry... as I am typing this, I still have presentation slides to do, a quiz to study, and an English assignment waiting for me... ==

And my laundry as well... ==

Lolz... byez for nowz... .____________________.

Happiness~

Ignore my previous, emo post that was... well, Emo.

I guess things have turned out to be okay... He and I spoke again, and we even played "Family Feud 2010" together... LOL...

teehee...

Well, the Swinburne Dance Party's banner is finally done!!! It took two days to complete! And it is so beautiful~~ =)

Actually the banner brightened my day... To be able to participate for my club is a fulfilling thing for me... I feel like I am a part of the club instead of just being a member... Gah, I don't even know what the heck am I talking about... ==

Oh wells, all that I know is that I am happy now, and erm... is patiently waiting for my haircut tomorrow... =P

One bad news, however, is that I am broke again... ==

Sheesh~~

Sadness~

Sheets... Well, it's okay for you to think of this word as the dirty version, because that is my intention. Yea, that's just me. Dare to do stuff but doesn't dare to do it publicly. Always beating around the bush, trying to play around with people's minds.

Dang. Just after having a happy meal, (not a McD, please), after going back to class, thunder struck me when my friend was annoyed that I didn't invite him to come with us just now for lunch. Psst. I'm so angry at myself. Well, what he said was true; he did accompany me when I wanted him to, although he has been laggy and so on, he still accompanied me. But when I went to enjoy myself, I've totally forgotten about him.

It's my fault. I guess this is karma? For getting out of class earlier than I was supposed to? Hrgh... so pissed at myself... I've unintentionally hurt someone who I'm not supposed to... =(

Grr... what to do now? Well, let him cool down first loh... Donno when will he be able to forgive me, but I hope it doesn't take too long... =\

Sigh... enough complaints for now... Gonna go bury myself in my grave of emo-ness now... ==

Wassup~

Hey, it's been days since I last posted anything, and Woo-hoo! This month has been the month where I have been updating like crazy! Before this post, there are 14 other posts, beating other months, where I only have 12 posts maximum... Lolz... Yea, I'm a number freak. Lol...

So... If you ask me what is on my mind now, I'd have several answers...

First of all, I seriously hope that Swinburne Dance Party will go on perfectly... =)

Second, I am starting to get tangled up in my own web of "relationships"... well, I guess I am the only one who knows what this means... ;)

Third... A sentence that slipped into my mind last night... "It doesn't matter how many friends you have in your friends' list, but it's the number of REAL friends that counts..."

Yea, something emo-ish... Sheesh... hahahaa...

Seriously, I am not emo now... just... normal... tee-hee... I guess I've learned that, by a normal heart you can do things easier... There's no need to be Emo, sad, angry or whatever negative... It's also not really ok to be too happy or anything too positive, because when it hits you it will hit you really hard... Meaning, the higher the expectations, the bigger the disappointment... I guess everybody has heard of this quote before right? Whether or not it's in English, Malay, Chinese, whatever... It's a common saying...

Taha! I sound like a preacher sometimes... I can't control it... I guess I am one of those who can tell people what to do but I can't do the same to myself... Sometimes I just can't decide what to do, you know? Lolz... hahahaha

XD

Today

Sigh... today started quite terribly, and ended quite nicely, I shall say...

Today I woke up at 6am due to three consecutive sneezes, and I was like, "What the heck?"

My first class was at 10.30am, so I spent about 4 hours to go online, then went to class...

The first "important" thing I noticed from my lecturer was "I'm not in a good mood today so please don't blow my fuse."

O.O

Ok, so throughout the class I tried to keep silent unless when she's asking questions... Then I noticed that sometimes she'd be looking at the students on her right. Oops...

Then... I have got a few hours before my next class, and despite having a rough start, I told myself that I am happy that things haven't gotten worse.

But no. Things didn't go for the worse, it's turned rotten! In English class, there were only four people in the class at first! Being a few minutes late, I thought we were so gonna be the fourth/fifth/whatever people to arrive in class, but heck no. Me, Cheok & Lily were the first to arrive! LOL!

And you know what? By the end of the class, only the three of us were the ones who stayed back in class... Eileen came in the fourth, but left at about a quarter hour later or so, and then Sam the Frog also came in and left. Norman stayed the longest amongst the three of them, but me, Cheok & Lily were the only ones who stayed in class throughout the class...

The rotten part came when I showed my lecturer, Mr Carbon Potassium Hydrogen-Uranium-Iodine, my team's report outline, he began shooting us like we have no values at all... I mean, it's okay for him to get mad for not getting what he wants, but he shouldn't say horrible things like, "I don't even know what you are doing" and sorts... ==

So, my mood was trashed for the whole evening or so, and I told myself that being angry couldn't solve the problem and so I put all of my hopes and dreams into the performance that would come that evening.

AND BOY Oh Boy! The show started quite boringly with a trio trying to sing a song which was translated "horribly", in my opinion, hehehe...

Then Joanne sang! Yay! I've always loved to hear her sing! At first when she told me that she has something to do with the performance, I've actually thought that she would be in the drama! But no! She sang "Love Story" by Taylor Swift... Although the sound system kinda ruined a little bit of her performance, but overall, her performance was still amazing as always... =)

After her singing, it was Joak's turn! He sang "Mungkin Nanti" by Peterpan, and he didn't start off nicely, maybe he was nervous or what, but he managed to collect himself in the end and he rocked the performance... =D Yay, Jo! Love you singing... hahaha

After that, I was surprised when I heard "Swinburne Dance Club". At first I thought the MC was trying to promote "Swinburne Dance Party" next week, but when I looked at the program's list again, I was happy to see SDC performing! YAY! I'm really really proud to be one of the members... =)

To the dancers, Ah Zoo (Chloe), Daniel, Jude, Evan, Kat, Adeline, ZheYii, Clement, Ife and others... My gosh! I am SO AMAZED and Awed by your performance, guys!!! You guys are the best!!! (Nah, I'm not trying to kiss your butts... Just speaking the truth... =))

The dance routine started off with "Love is Gone" by David Guetta, one of my favorite songs, and I just began to shake my head and moved my body around... I clapped and shouted, shouted and clapped... It was crazy! I couldn't have been anymore happier!

WoO!!! Now I can't wait to see what's in store for Swinburne Dance Club.. =D

After the AWESOME performance by SDC, there was a short break and I went to congratulate the dancers for awhile, and went back to my seat to watch the Drama titled "Alice in Wonderland", presented by Drama Club...

The drama was okay, but most of the time I couldn't get what the actors are trying to say because of the sound system again, I guess... Three Cheers to Desmond & Joel, who were in the drama... Desmond was a card, and Joel was the Director/Co-Director, the Stage Manager, the Sound/Music & Narrator, AND the Script Writer! WOW! That's a whole lot of tasks!!! Kudos, guys!!! Your hardwork has paid out! =)

After the show, I went to eat with Cheok & Carlson (who wasn't eating but played his Dearly Beloved MGS (Metal Gear Solid) through his PS1 Emulator using his lappie)... Ah... I'm so full even now! hahaha...

Alrights... It's a Saturday tomorrow!!! And that means....... DANCE CLUB!!! YAY!!! Can't wait!!! =D