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My Greatest Mistakes in Kuching

1) Falling in love with those who I shouldn't have. But... if you ask me I'd say I'd do it again... Coz it's always a very pleasurable feeling to be in love... =)

2) Coming here... Seriously, I get my heart broken every single semester... Now my heart has been so scarred that it feels nothing already... lol~

3) Getting to know you all... Seriously, if I'd known, I'd never have joined Dance Club and nothing would have happened from then on... It all began after I knew and got close to you all...

Hm... I actually have thought of more, but... I just forgot what they are when I actually am typing... lol~ =P

3 more days...

3 more days to decide it all...

I'm really hoping for the worst, which is the best for me. =P

I don't know what will happen, I just hope that it will be in the way that I liked it... =P

New Wishlist!

Remember my post which was like, a hundred ages ago? This one.

Out of the 13 things that I wanted to do, I did 12 of them. :D

And so I'm coming up with a new wishlist that I hope am able to achieve. :)

1) Save money for contact lenses. Yes, I think I look better without my specs. =P
2) Save money for a new laptop. Yes, something that when I look at it, I won't have the urge to release my anger onto... Lol! =D
3) Go for body-building. Seriously, I'm too skinny... And, I think I'll look better (and attract more girls) if I'm somehow more fit. =P
4) Start working. There's this shop in The Spring, "Game Mania", and they're hiring... =) And, if I can get a post there, I will be able to one, play games, two, work, and three, earn money! =D

hahahahahahaha~ Well, that's what I have in mind right now... :)

It's true that we don't know a lot of things in this world.

Currently, I don't know how long my heart is going to continue beating. It's become more and more... how to say? Well, refer to my previous post.

There has been a lot of things happening recently... October just isn't the month for me I guess... It's not like I care... At least not anymore.

I don't know what to do anymore. People continue to live for their ambitions; for their dreams. But I don't even know what they are anymore. There was once in Twitter when #in10years was trending.

I wanted to type "#in10years I will be a successful man, where I earn lots of money and live with my family happily ever after". But... as I typed "#in10years", I stopped. I can't even see that far into the future yet...

I don't even know if I would wake up the next day, what more should I expect in 10 years time?

I'm currently very lost. I don't know what to do, and I have no motivation in doing anything anymore.

I've been selfishly thinking that if my loan doesn't get approved, I'll go back to Miri and I'll work there. So that I can be with my family again. Kuching is seriously more and more retarded than I can get used to. More and more rotten things have happened and I don't want to go through them anymore...

You can call me a coward. A wimp. A loser. I don't care. I couldn't care either.

If I have no reason to believe in myself, why should I believe in anything else, right? Right now, I'm just grateful that my heart is still beating... The furthest that I can see in the future is next year, January. When I go back home for good... I don't want to study anymore... I seriously don't feel like studying anymore...

Why waste money on me? There's someone else in the family who deserves more than me to study and I feel like I'm just standing in her way. If I've never existed, she would be studying now. She wouldn't have to suffer all the pain that she's going through. I feel like a monster, destroying people's future.

I really have tried my best. I've tried my best to impress everyone. But not only do my impressions failed, I now have lost the power to continue living.

Sigh... This should be the best time in my life to throw a 500mph car toward me as I'm crossing the road on my way back home...

I ♥ U

Ever wondered why ♥ is typed as < 3?

It's because you accept your other half's negativity, makes him/her feel like there is zero gravity, proofs to him/her that you're his/her one and only, so that the two of you can be together...

:)

It's October!

Gah, the dreadful September is finally over...

And I think my readers (especially those who are connected with me via FB and Twitter) must have been thinking, "Uh, again? Can't he just move on?"

Well, my answer to you guys: "I will. Right after this post."

And so October hasn't been very friendly to me yet, but I think things will turn out to be better... Unlike last month, it started so smoothly and by the final few days it began to rain shit all over me... ==

Okay, so here's to all the people wishing for a month better than September... "Happy October!"

My prayers will be heard. They will. Although I don't really know who will hear them, but I know they will not go unheard... I believe...

So here's what happen when you don't know who to believe in... They are so many religions, and they are all talking about the same thing... Hahaha... It's like a person not knowing whether he should choose DiGi, Celcom or Maxis... (Is Celcom and Maxis the same plan? O.o)

Whatever... You get what I mean... XD

Alright... Time to move on... Today's just the second day of October... I won't be wishing for too much yet... The best things are meant for us to wait and anticipate for, right? XD