Something is wrong...

...with my heart.

That thing happened yesterday, but my heart felt nothing... nothing at all.

No bitterness.

No sadness.

No anger.

No happiness.

No nothing...

None at all...

Normally, if things like that happened, my first reaction would be crying my heart out. But not this time... This time, I couldn't even make myself sympathetic enough to cry my heart out. This time, I am not the victim. They are. They just made (one of) their biggest mistakes in their lives.

Well... it's not like they care, right? If they stopped being friends with me, they could be cheering. But whatever their reaction is, I don't care anymore.

Starting today, I swear, that I will live for myself, and no longer my friends...

Seriously...

What's the use of putting them in front of me when they don't appreciate it?

What's the use of taking a bullet for them when they don't need to be saved?

What's the use of everything that I have ever done for them?

What's the use of calling each other "brother/sister" when none of them took it to the heart?

And by the way, to all of the people I have listed as my siblings in Facebook, I treat them wholeheartedly as if they're my family.

But yea... Sometimes it's the closest people to you that hurt you the most...

From today onwards, I won't waste my time thinking if my words will hurt others. I will put myself as the main priority... I won't let myself get hurt anymore.

To those that think I'm talking about you, yea. I am talking about you. Go figure how you've treated me recently. Think about how I have been treating you guys and how you guys have been treating me.

For times and times again, I suck everything in because I treasure our friendship. It seems like our Titanic has finally hit the iceberg. It is slowly sinking, and hell yea, it's sinking.

It's just a matter of time before the Titanic sinks completely. It's just a matter of time where I will not give a damn about you people anymore...

And here I would like to make it official: I quit Dance Club.

Happy Birthday MUM!!! =D

Okay, this should be a "Happy Belated Birthday" greeting instead... Coz I don't have any access to the internet yesterday... Well, I did have, but only for about 20 minutes... And for that 20 minutes I didn't even think of updating my blog... haha...

So, yesterday was a very eventful and unforgettable day for me... =)

I woke up at around 9 something, forcing myself to get up because I need to get to Swinburne by 12pm to listen to rules and regulations of a tournament that I participated in...

Since the previous night, on Friday, I have already have bad feelings for Saturday, and guess what? I am so right!

When I woke up to brush my teeth and to take a shower, there's no water for about 30 minutes!!! =(

And so I took my sweet sweet time to play my PSP... =P

At around 11am, I was ready for Swinburne. I went to the Swinburne Carnival to check out some stuff, and luckily my 大哥 Andy was there to show me around. He brought me to Dance Club's stall and there I bought a cup of sugarcane juice. =P

After that we went to the library. There we saw Jessie, Ah Jo, Alvin and Boon Han. After that, Duckie, Elmer and Rocky arrived at the library and they chatted for awhile while I continued to practice my Tekken... =P

And so, at around 12pm, impatiently I walked to the Auditorium to see how things go... I was casted as the 14th player, out of an initial 18, and finally 20. The tournament would only start at 2pm, and so I have 2 more hours to practice.

The thing that I was the most worried about was the assignment of the shoulder buttons (the L1/L2/R1/R2 buttons of the controller). Because I have been heavily spoiled by my shoulder buttons, I was worried if shoulder buttons are unassigned, I would be in deep trouble... You see, I have been developing some really cool (and not to mention very long and powerful) combos with the help of my shoulder buttons.

Initially, the shoulder buttons are assigned, but the settings are uneasy for me to adapt and hence I was once again, worried.

I tried to reassign the buttons on my PSP to force myself to adapt to the new button settings, but after about 3 or 4 matches later, the organizer, Mr. Robert, announced that shoulder buttons would not be used because some of the players have brought their own controller and it's very troublesome to reassign the shoulder buttons every time the controller is changed.

After hearing the news, I told myself to calm down, because without the shoulder buttons, I still have other combos to unleash... I'll just have to save them for other matches in the future... =)

Then, it was finally my turn to play. I used my dearest Lili, (pictured here) in her third costume (pictured here). The stage was Manji Valley (the snow place), against an opponent named "Space Monyet"... I have forgotten who he has used, but yea, I managed to "Perfect" him once... =P

After that, I waited for other players to play while I try to study every players' fighting patterns... But, yea, I didn't get to learn much... Hehe~ =)

When it was my turn to play again, I guess it was the controller's problem, where I couldn't execute my moves correctly. I think there should be some sort of a lag in the controller and so I panicked. I wanted to ask for a change of controllers but I didn't... (Another reason would be because I was intimidated by the opponent, who uses Paul. I'm SCARED of Paul!!! T___T)

And so I lost that match... I didn't give up actually, since it's a Double-Elimination, meaning you can lose in the tournament twice... Lose once, you go to the "Loser's Bracket". You lose again, you lost the tournament... So from the "Loser's Bracket", there's still a chance for me to win the tournament... =)

And finally, it came to Top 8, Top 4, and finally Top 2... The process was long enough, but I enjoyed it a lot... =)

In my final match between me and my opponent, Patrick, I have to beat him twice, actually, before I can be considered as the winner. Because I have lost once, but he hasn't. And so he needs to go through a Double-Elimination as well... O.o

The final match was between Lili & Asuka... Wow, what a coincidence... They are both rivals! hahaha... :D

Patrick won the first round, and since then I began to mercilessly kick his bottom... Sorry! =P

When he was eliminated once, I can see that he has been holding back his combos a lot. As if he was intimidated by me. =S

But still I kept my cool and continued bashing on Asuka until I finally won the tournament... To tell the truth, I actually didn't realize that I have won until I noticed that I was in the Top 2... XD

I was actually waiting for my next match when I discovered that... It was already my final match... XD

And here are some photos~ ;D

The battle formation (whatever it is being called...)

My first match against Mr. Space Monyet

My final match against Patrick...



Me, receiving the prize~~ :D



Me! =D

Yea, I've learned a lot through this competition... Hopefully I can train further to become a better Lili user... =)

And so, until next time, this has been The King of Iron Fist Tournament 6, Joey Chen. :)

倒霉!!!

Eeesh!!! So soi lah me...

Last night ho, when I got home I wanted to transfer the freshly downloaded Kingdom Hearts: Birth By Sleep into my PSP and I realized my mouse is functionless now... Like, it won't run. ==

And then, after transferring the game into my PSP, I played it (of course... If not why I put inside leh...?) and suddenly, my earphones, which I had plugged into my PSP, suddenly have no sound coming out. And at first I thought maybe I have accidentally muted it or something and so I unplugged it and plugged it in again. Still, no sound...

I tried it on my phone and the same thing happens... ==

Eesh!!! So soi lar!!! =(

The earphones mean a lot to me... And is the longest-lasting ones that I have gotten in my whole terrible life... =(

And now, without my earphones, my life is suddenly so noisy... So dull... so uninteresting... =(

I WANT AND I NEED MUSIC!!! ==

Pain to the Full!!! =(

Have you ever been in such pain that you actually feel like vomiting? It feels really weird to be feeling like this this dawn...

I didn't really had a nice sleep last night... I was kinda excited about the English version of Kingdom Hearts: Birth By Sleep, and I played the game until 12.30am before finally wanting to sleep...

I slept until around 4.14am, where I had the occasionally late-at-night-stomachaches, and I was awaken from the pain. At first I tried to ignore it by continuing to sleep, but then the pain was too great for me to bear and so I went to the toilet to get rid of it.

It was only when I sat on the toilet bowl that I felt like vomiting... The only thing I could feel at that time was the pain... It was so painful that I felt like vomiting... Strange huh? =|

Sigh~ But I guess I'm okay now... Just very tired because I couldn't sleep after that... And I had to wake up at 7am... =(

Sigh~~~

Blood Donation~

Yup! I've finally done it! My first ever blood donation! :D

I've always wanted to donate my blood, but because I was underage (and I was worried because I am underweight), I wasn't able to do so...

But, yea, today I did it... I feel so proud being able to donate~ :D

And yea, I guess the people around me are getting so sick of me showing off that I can donate my blood... hahahaha...

Anyway, gonna post up some pictures soon... :)

Wake Me Up, When September Ends~~

Happy September people! Birthdays coming soon... Lots of them... =P

FF... Friends Forever.

I was really unhappy yesterday evening... I kinda received one of the biggest shocks of my life...

But, luckily I have friends (and really good ones too) who I can (and did) talk to... It is only through this event that I realized I have lots of besties... =P

Sigh~ It took me a lot to do something, and in the end, it was nearly crushed by just one person's force... It's scary as hell, but it also made me understand that, in this world, having something good doesn't mean the world. You need to present it to the correct person in order for that "good" to be put into good use...

I think I have presented my work to the right and wrong hands... I'm now praying that the good hands will guide me through this... thing... Or else I will seriously lose the motivation to ever do that thing again...

What thing? Er... It's a secret... =P