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Okay, so I have created a Tumblr account, and so I might not be able to blog the same contents to both blogs... And so... You guys might have to check out both of my blogs in order to get in touch with me~ :)

Feelings of the Day (LOL)

I had fun today working... :)

lots of laughter... that's a good thing... :)

*Empty*

Okay, I seriously donno what is there to blog about...

I feel like typing, but I don't know what I should be typing. But... I guess having nothing to type is considered as something to type about huh?

I'm starting to think about someone else recently... My gosh... I think I should continue in my private blog. >.<

Okay, so I have updated my private blog. hahahahahaha...

lalalalalala~

whatever lar...

S.I.G.H...

Something... happened last night as I was working... There was a customer who came to the cashier counter, where I was standing, and asked me in Malay whether the CD is... something-something or not. And I was like, "huh?"

Then his friend said, or rather muttered to herself, or just to her friends but too bad my sensitive ears were able to catch what she was saying, "Well, it's a little difficult if someone has no knowledge about music..." She said it in Malay as well...

And I was like, "Damn... That comment hurts a lot..."

Well, to whoever that might be concerned, especially to that woman, Not everyone is as fortunate as you are; not everyone has the financial support to learn music; to pick up the flute and start blowing into it; to pick up a grand piano and began doing the magical piano tricks...

So why do you speak in a way as if everyone is as privileged as you are? Do you think everyone deserves and is capable of learning music?

I donno... Maybe that, when added with the unsolved thieving incidents, totally spoilt my mood that night...

Sigh~

I feel a lot better today... :)

And there was a whole lot of new stock arriving today! Gosh! What a tiring afternoon! Haha~

And, I noticed that I have been faster in working... But still, when compared with William, my very experienced colleague, I'm still kinda slow... But it's okay... :)

Sigh~ I hope I can just abandon school for work... I seriously don't enjoy studying... Earning money is way more fun... :)

But... I'll just endure these next few (short) years to come, and after I got my degree, I can earn more money than the one I am earning now... And everyone will be happy... Right?

Wee~

I'm following some of the very talented Glee Cast members in Twitter! Go check them out!


@alittlelamb - Dianna Agron (Quinn Fabray)
@msleamichele - Lea Michele (Rachel Berry)
@frankenteen - Cory Monteith (Finn Hudson)
@druidDUDE - Kevin McHale (Artie Abrams)
@chriscolfer - Chris Colfer (Kurt Hummel)
@IJennaUsh - Jenna Ushkowitz (Tina Cohen-Chang)

I will go search for more twitter accounts when Twitter is not in its stupid "Over Capacity" mode again... >.<

Glee~

Just finished watching the season finale of Glee, season one. Damn, that show is really good!!! Too bad that it has to end... =(

According to my friend Gordon, who gave me the episodes of Glee, Season Two will premiere in September. Whoa... It's kinda long... 3 months from now! But it's alright... June's ending anyways... So it's like, two more months plus-plus to go... >.<

Okay, what am I saying? ==

I think I'll still be crazy about Glee for the rest of this week... :)

:)

I'm feeling a bit better today, thanks to... well, myself. haha...

I guess it's just all the stress coming from everything and everywhere that made me loosen a few wires in my complicated circuit...

After my long and dramatic post last night, and after thinking it through, I think I really was, and still am, desperate to be in a relationship. And yes, although I know it's kinda difficult for me, but still, I'm keeping my hopes above average height. Don't wanna put my hopes too high coz I know how disappointed I'll get when I don't get the things that I want. =P

Saw a lot of people today. They were all looking at me. Well, on normal occasions they'll just ignore my presence and walk away, but today, people tend to look at me for at least one second before looking away. I guess my prayers are heard? :)

But still, I don't think I wanna stress too much on this thing... If it is meant to happen, it will. I won't, and I can't force it to happen for me. And so I'll just wait. And continue to have wild imaginations about the people that I fancy looking at... mwahahahaha... XD

Emo..........? Well, kinda close...

Well, I don't think I need to put this in my private blog. People should know that I am not always happy, although I might appear to be. I am just a human being, after all.

Lately, I'm getting tired of putting up a smile for everyone to see... I want people to understand that I am not as happy as they see me as.

Strangely, I don't know why I am being sad. Perhaps, I have been too alone, I guess. But... it's not something new. I am always alone and I have always been alone. I'm seriously looking for someone to hold and love me. As in, yea, the romance type... I'm getting tired of being single... I wanna give my love to someone~ But who?

They say the best men in the world are either gay, or taken. So what does that make me? Am I not good enough? I think so.

Some of you might say, "Oh, the time just hasn't come, that's all!"

But, I still haven't had any experience in love at all. Some of my friends have had a boy/girlfriend since they're like, I donno, twelve? But me... no one wants me. No one will ever do, I think.

Gah... I may say I enjoy being single; yes, that is still a fact, but you know us humans... we always say things that we don't really mean... I enjoy being single, but I'm dying to know how it feels like to be in a relationship too, you know? I wanna be caressed by my lover and I wanna be touched. And I wanna have someone to hold onto in the middle of the night when I'm all lonely or when it's raining. I wanna have someone in my life who I can talk about anything to. But the more I ask for them, the less chance I'd be getting them. I really wonder why.

I lost my patience today in the shower. I growled aloud, stomped on the linoleum floor and banged my fist on the cement wall. What for, I ask. I usually can control my patience... But I guess I'm losing my self control.

I don't really know what to believe in anymore, and why would I believe in anything in particular, moreover.

Sometimes I wish I have some special abilities that allow me to be able to slightly manipulate what others might feel or do to me, you know? How I wish I can just make someone fall in love with me with a lift of my eyebrow or so. How I wish, how I wish, how I wish...

I don't always get what I wanted, coz I believe I'm designed to get what I needed. I don't just want a N85, I need it. And I know I'm getting it no matter what.

You see, whenever I want something, mostly things that have concern with money, I would, in one way or another, be granted a chance to get the money. For example, when I wanted to buy something really bad, and when at that time I was broke, I would automatically be led into situations where I will gain some money bit by bit until I'm able to buy the things that I want.

When it comes to love I guess I won't be getting it that easily coz... Money can't buy love. No matter how bad I want to be in love, I won't, coz I'm not built to be loved. I think.

Ha. How depressing... I guess I'll just have to live on a few more years of my life being single... gah... It's such a pain in the ass for being me... It sucks to be me, and I know it.

My First Pay!

Yay! Received my first pay today! All my hard work has finally paid off~ Whew~

I'm just a few months away from getting myself my new phone, N85. I love its design~ :D

Today I went to the Nokia shop in Spring, and there I learned four things.

1) N85 is RM1280.
2) N85 is out of stock.
3) N85 is no longer being manufactured. NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!! T____T
4) 5800 is cheaper than N85, by around RM300+, and it's touch screen with WiFi! O.o

Hm...

I might need someone to bring me to Saberkas to help check the price of a N85... :)

Scary Experience...

Okay, so some of you might know that the library closes at 3AM last... night (?) [And yes, it's 3AM. Reminds me of the unheard Eminem track by the same title...]

So, I was like, so damn tired and sleepy and so when the library closed I wanna get home ASAP...

And... the walk back to my home, that short 15 to 20 minutes worth of walking has finally injected the word "fear" down to my bones.

And so I was walking towards the junction (the Queen's Tower junction, not the Daily Joy junction...) and I saw a red Savvy driving past. At first I thought it was just another car driving past (although it's really uncommon for that hour a night) and so I kept walking. When I stopped at the junction, I looked to my left and right (even though I knew, and assumed, that there would be no cars around) and saw the red Savvy had stopped driving. The brake lights were on, and I started to have a bad feeling about what was going on but I put on my (Po-po-po-poker face-po-po-)poker face and continued walking.

As I walked around the corner, I saw the red Savvy, which was supposed to have it's end facing me, now has its headlights shining on me. It was then when I realized something is seriously not right with the car... There is something fishy going on, for sure.

But still, I continued walking, with my earphones blasting music into my ears, it appeared as if I had never noticed that car before. I have had my hoodie pulled down near to covering my eyes, as it was raining slightly.

Then, when I was near to a short opening in the road, the car drove forward and turned in into the opening, as if to stop me from continuing walking. But still, I maintained my coolness and speed, and continued walking as if I really am blind or something. I walked past the car and turned my head around for quite a few times to check on the car. It had never moved since, and I had a better feeling about the situation...

Then, comes those freaking annoying dogs. The black dog whom I have always thought of either poisoning it or striking it with my umbrella was barking at me. I turned my head to look at the red Savvy again as I continued walking, and it hadn't moved at all.

The black dog kept following me until it finally stopped, but the barking continued. I turned my head for the last time to see that the red Savvy had finally moved again, and it turned right, to the junction which we first "met".

The dogs all barked at me one after another as I walked down the street, but they didn't affect me because none of them were going to bite me. =S

Then, as I was approaching Gardenia Court a car past by me, and suddenly my heart was racing but it quickly went back to normal when the car that drove past me was a Proton Saga.

After I was in my room, I took my shower before sleeping and that's it... My first ever scary (as in literally scary) experience of walking home... =P

So, people, be aware of a red Savvy when you're walking home alone in the night... It might not be a good sign... :)

I Want A New Phone~ :)

Oh, I wanna look for a job when I'm back... I wanna earn some money!!! I didn't really know what I wanted to buy for myself using my hard-earned salary, but an idea came to me last night and I'm really excited about it as well!!!

*Drum rolls*

I wanna buy myself an iPhone!!! :D

Or just basically some touch screen phones that supports wifi... I seriously NEED to go online using something more mobile than my freaking laptop... == Besides, an iPhone is just like a mini laptop... :)

But the price. Oh, god. That's... costly... ==

So... I've done a little research before typing this sentence, and I've come to realize that a 16GB iPhone is going to cost me a freaking RM2490!!!

Man, that's crazy!!! T_____T

Gah... and here are some of the other WiFi enabled phones out there as well...

N79, N82, N85, N91 and N96...

The prices I malas want to check, but I know it'll be cheaper than that freaking iPhone... T___T

hahaha


N79:



N82:



N85:


N95:



N96:



And, my dearly beloved but cannot be owned, iPhone... T___T


I think an iPhone looks sleek, don't you think? ;)

Then, an N85 would be my second choice coz it looks cool and it's... like a Transformer... XD

Well, let fate decide what I would be using lar... hahaha... XD

Wow, I've never gotten this crazy over phones before... :)

It's June...

Before you know it, it's June. How time flies...

In just one short month, I'll be flying my butt back to Brunei, a place where I think I truly belong...

This time, I'm not going to spend my time or money texting my friends to see if they're okay or not... I think it's kinda annoying; plus, it's proven to be ineffective in trying to maintain our friendship. We've run out of things to say to each other and now we're in a stalemate. She's not talking to me, and I'm not talking to her. No big deal, though. I think it's better if things stay this way. :)

Anyway, I'm very excited to go home!!! But I know I will be in big trouble if my mum knows how I have been spending (again). ==

Blargh....